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Sunday, October 30, 2005
i've to urgently go to msia :/ now i even have to ask jiayun to help me pass the confirmation slip. thanks man! anyway to huahui: please, ure recommended to go to the performance set up by practice performing art school, called zhu2 guang1. if many ppl are going, like abt 20, den wanglaoshi will be able to subsidise part of the ticket amount. so if ure interested, get more ppl to go! the info is below: 18-20.11.2005,8pm. 19-20.11.2005,3pm. raffles hotel-jubilee hall(QIHANG 2004!) prices: $18, $22, $50 please order as soon as possible if ure interested, to peipei or wang lao shi. im sorry i wun be here. and also, for the holiday lessons, bear in mind that sec ones and twos are only required to go for session 4 and session 5. sec3s go for all. thanks. and for the 2nd session or so, wang lao shi wun be there so must take care of urselves, dont be too disobedient. yepps! im bringing the gameboy advance along, so if the owner is reading this, dun worry i'll take care of it! i seem to have alot of things to take care of; the book, the vcds i borrow, and now got one more gameboy(the most ex one). pressure! Thursday, October 27, 2005 haiis. ALMOST get our chance at the drums at PS today with weiling, we managed our way with our shirt-over-pinafore plan. just as i was abt to pick up the drumsticks, the person chased us out! CRIES. aye unluckyy larh!! so close!!! bird park, eh :/ not much surprises aye. quite sian. and get bitten by bloody black bugs. their blood stained my feet when i swept them away! and oh, the penguins were the cutest! and the owls were spectacular too. the place was so dark cannot even make out the face of the person next to you. i like this two places from the bird park the most, know why? cos got aircon. minidrama? :( Tuesday, October 25, 2005 there you go, mrs shan or mrs hoh! I LOVE HUANG CHU WEN! today was totally hectic, went to hot and sunny(not like the beach though) chinatown with the lethargic p6s, more of chatted than discussed the math trail with them. the sec ones were so much better :D mrs goh asked for urgent meeting for announcements, in the end it ended on the dot of twothirty. i was practically FRANTIC cos guolaoshi and xulaoshi were already there, i went str back to class and found me and my classmates being locked out. imagine how flustered i was(why does it sound like a compo)! and well, the door finall opened i grabbed my things and ran for upper concourse, and no one was there-.- apologised to guolaoshi and rushed to change; and when i ran up agn the person (the only person) who arrived was vivian. didn really know what to do but xilaoshi called wanglaoshi and im supposed to bring her to the forum to see how it looks like cos the upper concourse was too noisy. so i did. in the huge rain, i lead xulaoshi to the forum, by the time i was soaked through and xulaoshi looked so cute la haha. den yes! now the big time comes, im supposed to go back to upper concourse to get my stuff, and walk back to the forum again! when i finally sat down on the forum steps i was practically dying aye. but worth it! :D we started the lesson one hour late, SORRY guolaoshi and xulaoshi! stuff we did today was quite based on fridays lesson. and its exactly the one i watched at toa payoh at that time, the stage of the oppression or the forum theatre. it was the same. very fun, cannot take it haha. cant wait. but hey, when will be da zu agn? came back and right after bathing and eating dinneri just fell asleep until now. tired! gaining fats -.-" Sunday, October 23, 2005 haha yes weiling lets go play drums from anywhere someday SOON! and bring me to the one at compass point, i still didn have a chance to go see. go out sooooon! and vanessa im so positively jealous of you ok. your two weeks compared to my three and a half years! nvm. if i manage to get my brother to sponsor me i'll kill to take up the lessons! although im not sure if i would switch to flute instead :D ah and dun stereotype special ppl as nerds lorh, im like, SO FRIGGIN' COOL. -waves to imaginary audience- Saturday, October 22, 2005 to the girl whose knee is gonna turn chaota in time to come, i suppose u have a photographic memory while signing my gbk, like str answer from my blogpost! if i didn read my post, i wouldn have understood what you meant by "yes i will(around there cant relle rmb im not refering to my gbk now)" and some other words totally no link to the previous sentence! haha. i must have looked like a bookworm holding some book that looks like a bible(everyone says im a priest now) going everwhere. no wonder u didn dare to 'disturb' haha. just here to write this message. u should be honoured mans! alright, shall say more to make u feel less special -.- (haha) somewhere out there in kebun baru cc a group of girls are rehearsing for minidrama while im here sleeping my head off and reading my uh, bible-lookalike harry potter and the half blood prince haha! box my mum. but at least i saved my butt of an hour's bus ride to the school. decided not to take on the SMP. rather sad actually :( but huahui's more impt! i dun wanna spend the whole of my next year doing experiments(no matter how much im interesting in; though im not a nerd) especially when i have the chance to be a daoyan(i hope so). aye sorry eliz! off to watch my tanpanzhuanjia and mvp! Friday, October 21, 2005 yes you were THAT blind, and that deaf too! i was really standing in front of you saying hi. haha. ahh no more talks abt talentime, a total disgrace to charity and yes weiling sang well! but she thinks she'd embarrassed herself, convince her no! and take care of ur leg yeah! saw you limping and that cotton thing on ur knee. and u disappeared without saying bye, how rude, -shakes head- ok joking! wahseh, i more and more idolise guoqingliang and xuhuiling laoshi! guolaoshi's so stylo and xulaoshi's too cute :D lesson was fun, but full of betrayal :/ the right ppl will know what i mean, haha. so many familiar cases huh. keep feeling theres something i havent done, dunno what, so frantic now. argh nvm it will hit me somehow, just hope its not too late. can i just wash my hands off this matter? i cant stand it anymore. heck, larh. Thursday, October 20, 2005 nononono! think u saw it wrong. (oh uh message to vanessa! look its you! haha) how can you hear my across the road when you didn realise i was standing RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU saying hi? haha, nvm, im known for being psychic. next time i'll send brain waves. no need to use throat to shout at you(nah, i wun shout and u wun hear anyway :D )! whoa, today is such an utterly embarrassing day. nice theme we had there. well, nice theme but not nice presentation. damn me and my stupid ugly voice! bleh sorry two charity :( and diligence rocked! :D go weiling! meeting was somehow productive. cant wait for december!! Wednesday, October 19, 2005 hellos vanessa! i shall reply to you first since you almost couldn make it through my previous entry to the back hhaa! now its easier right! oh, at first also dunno whether it was you or not! and shout for you meh? den later u'll be like "who are you" hahaha! but i stopped in front of you and said hi LOUD and CLEAR! someone deaf only! :P was before we said hi near ur house larh. thats why dunno if u recognise me. im not lousy lorh, im so friendly! :D hahahah! arh, die for talentime alr. i shall not jiayou for our class or say good luck, cos my good luck is jinxed! nice song below! you will always be inside my heart itsu mo anata dake no basho ga aru kara i hope that i have a place in your heart too now and forever you are still my love ima wa mada kanashii love song atarashii uta utaeru made you are always gonna be my love itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo i'll remember to love you taught me how you are always gonna be the one mada kanashii love song now and forever... Tuesday, October 18, 2005 had rally today. faints. so many ppl. didn collect much souvenirs this year! only had the balloon the sweet(chocolate so it seemed) the stick-in-hair wire and a few stickers. haha! i want the brolly :D 2c's aircon caught fire in the afternoon. no one knew until some sec3s and a teacher came in looking super serious and when the teacher lifted the curtain we saw the railing of the aircon thingie on fire, BIG fire! we were too interested and got chased out instead of escaping from it or smth. went to cca early without lunch, felt lethargic larh and found the sec ones(again) almost all already there, and mind you it was just the end of school. haha. so diligent man. the presentations and games we had today was fun, so sad to have missed the lessons during exam. one game was the pass-the-msg-with-body-lang thing which no group achieved, joanne's question of "pregnant lady about to give birth" became a dance in the end, also dunno how it happened! damn lame but very funny everyone laughing to tears by the end of each group. the most funny one was the one where five ppl stand in front and we're supposed to make them laugh! WEILING WAS SO FUNNY HAHAHAH! she said she wanted to laugh just looking at me, what a nice thing to say huh! but imagine someone who plans to paint two super red circles onto the cheek and putting lipsticks with respect to RUHUA, sneaking into the cinema showing THE WIG and scaring the ppl watching the show more than the characters itself, even if she dun laugh at me, i would have laughed at her hahaha! aye weiling, i really wanna do that can! hmm rmb our deal being two ugly scary poks scaring everyone off orchard road! oh, i digressed. but the rest of the day no content larhs. minidrama is screwed :( aye but what can i do if someone calls the shots and wouldn listen to comments blahblah? haiis cant be bothered anymore its just tiring myself trying to, ok shant say anymore. dun wanna get sued. yeah thats abt it :) and yepps vanessa(first time addressing you, haha, if u'll ever see it)! have a blog/gbk? cos now like if im replying to you im announcing to the whole world :// oh btw did you know, abt dunno how many months ago, i once tried to say hi to you twice at the bus stop opp the petrol station? bet you didn hear, you didn even look up when i practically almost stopped in front of you for you to react. so engrossed in thinking! it was an evening. haha. but tsk, so maluating in the end i just walked away larh. haha! Monday, October 17, 2005 whoa! today my mum damn long-breath(translate to chinese: chang qi) man! stay in geylang bahru and chatted with all the lao jie fang for FOUR whole hours! she good larh, she go pple's house, i go wander around the streets -.- finally managed to get my long awaited HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE from mr kelvin liew. haha. and if ure reading this, NOTE! i really didn tell your brother when u told me not to ok! the next few hours were spent uselessly walking here and there. i realised my k2's childcare centre changed its name :( oh at blk 93 i saw this cat and 6 tiny kittens and i went to play with them! they were so cute, all circled around my leg haahha. they start to lick my toes :D VERY VERY ADORABLE! watched them play for like half and hour or so, all very hyper and active! den went back to blk 97 and stone. till my dad arrived. and he went to the playgrd and chatted with me. haha. nice reminiscing abt stuff when i was young, and HAHA, ALL ALONG someone lamer claims to be STALKING me from his house window, go and die! haha. im just finding my childhood, rmb. i didn manage to go help in danfong's campaign, very sorry! but jiayou for tomms, i'll be rooting for you always! :D VOTE DANFONG FOR HEAD PREFECT! eventful day today huh, anyway you ppl out there, ESPECIALLY my mum, congratulate me on my 50percent for lit. oh not to forget SOMEONE! since ur identity is revealed, den probably u wun be coming to play with me liao hahah! thanks for ur first entry anyway! see ya around den, smile! :D Saturday, October 15, 2005 haha. i am enlightened! someone, by any chance ur name has one L, one V, one Z, two As, two Es, two Is, two Ms, two Ns and three Ss? anyway i noticed something. ur typo errors are cute. u never spelt anything wrong but the letters always change position hahah! oh right monica chua, once you come back to singapore, im kicking you to the moon for good. Friday, October 14, 2005 someone! was it at night...? i rmb very very long ago i saw someone wearing stnics pe shorts playing badminton yepps. but i dunno who she is! who are you? haha at that time, i didn recognise the person larh. you are her? do i actually know you?? oh god im dense -.- starting to feel stupid! whoa anyway! i've actually stopped blogging for awhile and now because of communicating with you i've refound my love for blogging haahah! no other channels of communication alr :D be honoured yeah! argh had dunno how many hours of sleep today. haven started on amah's tan pan zhuan jia! and my com's stupid virus doesn allow change of audio settings :( i dun want to listen to double voices! distorted eyes :/ wonder what happened. triple vision. Thursday, October 13, 2005 someone! you reply so fast! haha. ANYWAY! I DIDN SEE ANYONE PLAYING BADMINTON RECENTLY! when??? huh you live in ANCHORVALE? two charity! we LOST. but we lose with pride! and we know we did our best, the other classes that won or are satisfied, congrats! great games played today (uh few regrets from first 2 games of floorball but owells sigh) anyone fancies playing floorball during some recess time? haha im addicted to defending :D jiayou for talentime and minidrama next! (am i over enthu or optimistic?) but anyway, dunno if you ppl will read this, 2c floorball pple! but really. my point today was, winning isnt the most important. the most important was that we KNOW we have tried our best(we know our limits) and change our mistakes, instead of brooding over the lost games, we must concentrate on how we can do better in the next game. AND, no offence. it doesn matter how many times i person play as long as she is good. shuo nan ting yi dian, dun kiasu or jealous or feel unfair, lah! oh dun box me, if you know who im talking about. and hey! i not that useless lorh :( aiyah, just abit... irritated today larhs :( spent ard one hour plus to go back to geylang bahru. i really miss that place man. :( but the stupid pig, waste my time and my effort! (he wun be reading this anyway) walked from dunno how many km to reach and go back! nvm. IM BURNING FATS. ohyeah! hey SOMEONE! live in sengkang? but sengkang got hen duo ren lorh! where got big hint? haha but i like guessing games haha so exciting! oh and! ur first entry is sarca or what :/ TIRED! whose fault? pig's fault. bleh. ok nvm lols. I LOVE THE RAIN :D whos the someone at my gbk? haha reveal ur identity! (lols im being lame agn) oh no... that day was a disaster. im SO ashamed in front of the cohort! ok. so i'll become infamous in just a matter of minutes boohoo. the mission was really nice :D haha. arghhh the whole weeks becoming an embarrassing business :( gonna die at floorball tomms! twocee jiayou! :D Friday, October 07, 2005 :( thats all i feel like writing today. Thursday, October 06, 2005 eoys are over. not much feelings. no idea why. maybe i changed my perspective of life. many times i feel its pointless to study late into the night for a grade. there may be a tiny weeny influence in ur future, but does studies really matter? if i were to pursue my dreams, i would not need a certificate. i always thought life was interesting for students, like shangxue's point, the friendships, the processes of learning and stuff. however i just dun feel right, friendships are nice but truthfully, i cant trust anyone on my life. its really no one. i seriously doubt whether even my parents would actually mope when im wiped out of the world. they dont look like they do, for the matter. cca stopped. and i feel like life has stopped. my heart ached for all the lessons from dramabox i missed. actually, they are about the only stuff i come to school for and look forward to. i really dunno what to do without huahui. studying into the wee hours of the morning these few days, without actually meaning to, i was exhausted the minute i reached home after celebrating the end of eoys. i wondered if all the hard work was worth it, i fa1 re4 and had dunno how many ulcers, which my dad told me its due to lack of sleep. if being a student really has to go to this extent, then i think singapore is too extreme. i once watched a survey conducted on the streets on children. the emcee asked them what was their worst fear. practically none was afraid of maybe losing a loved one, or meeting with a disaster. to my surprise, about all of them said that they are scared of exams, and poor results. to come and think of it, i'll probably say that if i were being interviewed. of course, those kind of surveys cant be trusted as they are being told what to say before they are being filmed. but it is true, it is so true that it pains me to see singaporeans struggling to be creme de la creme, and the children being deprived of a happy childhood and going under stress and pressure in school. at this point of time, i really wished i lived abroad. eoys may be over... but that was not of a significance to me at all. what else? no freedom, lorh. whats the use of relaxing when you cant do something you want? i really dont understand my mum sometimes. i heard over the radio this advertisement, they are telling the parents that if their child tells you where they are going, they are respecting you, informing you of their plans. the parents must think from the childrens perspective at times, otherwise for the children who are being deprived of their wishes for no reasons, are quite xing1 ku3 actually. i dunno what my mum dun understand about that. im sad. it seems that i have always been bound by this invisible rope from her mind. and i cant go out unless she releases me bit by bit. over the years, she has been pulling me back from all my desires to spend time with my friends, and not letting me do what i want. i have said this before. she doesn even allow me to go to the 7-eleven underneath my block to buy a snack when i want to. and all these times, i would ask her politely for her permission. she never agreed. i had no choice. many times i could only go out when i have projects or meetings(which she also objected to). i really have no more options. in order to finally have a breather, i lied. sometimes. i never felt guilty as i believed it was me who was being deprived. most of the times i was just sad, i self pity about the amount of freedom i have. people do sympathise with me, and i grow even more sad. thats one thing to be ashamed about. today was the last straw. i was just about to share with her about kbox, she just cut me off and said, "dont you tell me. i dun wanna listen" of course, being very dignified, i just retorted "i just want to share with you. im not telling you im going" and she just replied with "i dun even want to listen anyway. whats the use of telling me." at that point, i was so disappointed at her, i moved away from her until i was not in contact with her. i mentioned i respected her thats why i was telling her all the stuff. so what did she do on hearing that? she scratched her ears and pretended she heard something really bad. whats the world coming to. i screamed. i cried. then i kept quiet. my dad was silent the whole time. i know he agrees with me. but he never defies my mother. i knew if he stood up for me, he would probably have his head bitten off by my mum. did i mention this in any other posts? owells. i dun care, im gonna say it anyway. im so utterly disappointed in my mum over the years. since like primary two, she made so many empty promises to me. and now she's being a total devil at home. she kept nagging about that "monster"(my sister-in-law) and she complained and complained, calling her rude names behind her back and praising herself. i do know she is my mother, but even i couldn stand it. sometimes i just felt like telling her "can you just shut up? its none of my business and i dun wanna know. plus. dun be such a crude person, scolding other people names not in their face." but of course, i know i could not. she is now a total pest and a typical arrogant rat, but theres nothing i can do about it, cos she's my mum. another point to make, im already fourteen. she hasnt let loose any of her leashes around me. studies, freedom, money... im tired. im very tired. i know this is minor compared to other serious cases. but it doesn feel good anyway. thanks blog. i hope i dun get sued. 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